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Sunday, December 27 1:02 AM
29Days Without You. (still counting on...)
{Once gone, you'll never be able to have it back with you}
Friends asked me what i see in you.
I gave them a smile back.
Not because i dont have an answer.
Its because i dont want them to fall for you too.
Monday, December 21 2:07 AM
VISIT XIAXUE' S BLOG NOW.
http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
Ohmygoodness! Xiaxue's getting engaged on the 14thMarch 2010. Congrats! (:
I do envy her for getting such a sweet, awesome boyfriend/husband. I read her online touching story and viewed her wedding proposal video. Oh my fcuking god, i cant believe that Mike just sent her an email and there's when their love story started and blossom. I do envy xiaxue for owning such a fab' boyfriend, seriously. Its was like so fcuking sweet between mike and her. Mike actually proposed to her in a movie theatre and i guessed many people cheers for the lovelies couple. I viewed again and again for the video and i just wondered if there's such a good man other than mike in this world. hahaha, i'm dreaming right now.
I just couldn't believe what xiaxue posted. She can actually paid for her and mike air tickets to fly to and fro to each other's countries. And mike could also actually paid for the airtickets for one another too. They both accomodated to each others' needs. Wow, isn;t that sounds unbelievable. But that's a fact. They both can actually scarifice time and everything for one another. Scarificing 's the key to a successful relationship, i think so.
Mike's a fab boyfriend? Yeah, i guessed so. From what xiaxue has posted, and from what mike has written the letter for her, my point of view : Its' not an easy task for them to be together and meetup often as they are both in different countries, and was like so far away. But still, their love for one another was there. Whats more, xiaxue didn't actually ditch mike or whatsoever, when mike had no place to stay in, no job and nothing much to offer to her. I feel that xiaxue 's also made a fab' girlfriend. Girls out there, should learn the way xiaxue's. I think that they are a couple, meant to be together. Xiaxue had been single for 4 years, and now she's finally attached to a rather cute, fantastic, loving-husband to be. Congrats! May their marriage last.
Many girls out there thinks xiaxue 's a bimbo or whatsoever, but i dont think so. I love her personality. Such as if she really dislikes something/some outsiders, she would just comment on them and not hiding her feelings. She would just share it on her blog or said out loud. She's those type of persons who loves attention but also ignoring how people judged her and be her own way , own style. I do think that she's quite pretty , her bigbig eyes rocks, her long golden hair and her sexy figure. Ok, shall end here. For more details, visit xiaxue blog.
Sunday, December 13 4:36 PM
- To forget about my past. eff-ing past.
- I tried my very best to believe another guy.
- The guy gave me assurance, gave me promises.
- Yet, in the end, everything was all a lie.
- He could actually told i love you to two persons.
- Aha, seen too much true colours of guys already.
- Lies, after lies. All was just lies. What the fcuk.
- i think the only guy who never lie to me was 290909
- ok, enough of the me reminsincing the past already.
- Hated sweettalk guys to the maximum.
I lied to myself umpteen times. Dont know if i could get over and move on soon.
Saturday, December 12 1:30 PM
I could only blame myself.
for being a fool.
{I'm still sick, on medication :/ }
I have been working and working. Never expect myself to fall so ill this time. Never.expected at all. :/ I guessed i thought working could helped me forget everything. Yes, at first, it did helps. But after some time, i gotten tired of this life, this work and other jobs that i was doing. I never expect i would be so eff-ing careless to fall down from so high while reading the messages in my phone. "Stupid" was the only word i could find to describe myself. Fcuk! Last time, I didnt realise the consequences at all. But now, i knew. I could almost be paralysed for the whole of my life. I learnt my lesson. I really learnt it. Whatever it is, i just hoped i could recover fully from my illness. I'll be returning to work tomorrow or on monday, i'll continue to chiong sales.
And i miss one of my regular customer who never failed to make me laugh during work and also bought 4 bags at one shot. I still remember some days ago, she brought her son to Charles& keith. She introduced her son to me. And we both laugh-ed behind her back because we knew her motive for doing that. The next moment, i saw her husband, i got a big shock. Her husband was one of the customer i served at Novena square, and her husband likes my good service. Her husband praised me too. (: She also said, next time she wants to buy Charles &keith , she would definitely look for me, Joanne! Now, some customers knows my big name already.
Shall off end here. I'll be meeting yazhen, meixian at suntec city & raffles city. I'll be waiting for them after their work. And maybe, i will get to see Ronald, Melvin. Wonder if they could still remember me? (:
Thursday, December 10 3:46 PM
Poor Me, I'm Sick.
The doctor gave me 1 week mc, which means i couldnt work for 1 week. _l_
I saw what i shouldnt see again.
I see no point in loving you anymore.
I wasted my time on you, didnt i?!
Saturday, December 5 2:09 PM
I apologized to the clique; (sorry)
Sorry Sist(s) and Bro(s) for drifting away from you. Perhaps like what you guys has mentioned. Some changed, some drifted, some ... I'm sorry. Perhaps i have changed? I didn't know actually how to face you guys already. I drifted with you guys, not slacking with you all already, partly the reason' s i dont wanna stay in sembawang to slack as i would remember some memories with him. Canberra park, basketball court... And i dont wanna actually to cry infront of you guys already. Its' like such a embrassement or whatever stuffs. I guessed its like not first or second time crying infront of you guys. I dont want ahboon etc to be troubled and i dont want my own f. problems to affect you guys' mood. That shall be the last time i going to cry over things. I think i'm able to stay strong by myself. Even i wanna share with you guys, i dont even know how to open my mouth and explain those words in my heart. In fact, nowadays, I rather kept everything inside me and bear with all the f. problems that was surfacing and weighing down on me. Maybe its time for me to face all problems by myself? Whatever it is, i hope the remaining people in the clique would takecare, and be united always.
Bye, Joanne 'll always remember this clique; misses you all badly.
Sunday, November 29 10:41 AM
GAME OVER (!)
{Relationships are just like glass. Its better to leave them broken, than hurt yourself by putting it back together }
u have changed. you completely changed to someone whom i didnt know. You yourself should know why. You are getting from good to bad, bad to worse. This time round, you are the one who initiated the break. I understand why you did that . I know i am at fault but never did i knew it was for that reason. The guys are close to me, so what. But my heart only contains you. The one and only Zhuang Jinqiang la! Okeh, whatever. Its now over le. You let go of me first, and i dont see the reason why i should hold you back anymore. Perhaps it was meant to be a lie right from the start. I shouldnt have trust/believe D's words. All of you could give me assurance. But in the end, whose heart would be the first to break? Is it you, or you or me? I already predicted this would happen but D kept asking me to try. I did tried but i failed. I shouldn't have try at all because not knowing the last truth's even better. I rather let the breakup from last time continues. I shouldnt ask for a patch at all. You're the first guy i ever ask for a patch. I really really really love you so much yet this had to happen. _l_ I guessed you never know how i feel at all.
Honestly speaking, I'm afraid of getting hurt again and again, again and again. History repeats itself. _l_
Sunday, November 22 11:19 PM
- Bugis Outing With Dion, Fish, Qianwei, Yvonne, Zachary, Ruilin
Trained down to bugis mrt station today, Boonbing,Edwin, Leehan,Yaorui went into the same cabin as us. They were heading down to Toapayoh for work. Dion, Fish, Qianwei, Yvonne went down to bugis street and bugis junction. Fish and dion bought their t-shirts. Yvonne bought her metaph. bag. Chriscilia couldnt come along with us because she fell sick and had to see doctor. Get well soon, my girl. Zachary went down to pick ruilin from work. Aww, so sweet of Zach. We had our lunch @ Mosburger. Then Zachary and ruilin came find us there. After a while, some unhappy events happened. Hope everything 'll be fine between them :/
Trained back to sembawang and went to basketball court. Then walk-ed down to canberra park find boyfriend there. He was having training till 7pm. Slack-ed at there, fcuking bored sial. After his training, he came to accompany me. :) Thanks ! I love you...
I saw Yijie's hand was bruised and i called chriscilia and asked if her house got ice anot. Poor Yijie la, his hand was like swollen. Oh my goodness! Being his friend, i couldnt leave him in a lurch so i went to chriscilia house take ice(s) for him. Hope his hand would be fine ba. Then went back to my boyfriend 's side to accompany him. After that, Yvonne sist. went home to takecare of her brother. William, Qianwei, Fish, Chriscilia, Jinqiang and me communicated with one another using vulgarities in every sent. Laughoutloud. We 3 couples went down to Block 313 kopitiam to have our dinner. And that's when i went fcuking pissed off with Vincent at the kopitiam. I called Vincent to check my work shift and guessed what he told me. He said i have to be transferred down to Citylink mall. What the fcuk la. I rather work with Handsome Vincent than at Citylink because the S.Manager would be strict to the staffs. What the fcuk sial. I'll miss JoeJoe and Ahwei to the max! Thanks ah, Vincent. Hope i dont see you around in sembawang. I know where you stay, damn you (!)
Last but not least, I'm glad that we finally back together again. I will love you la, dont worry. Regarding the gang, you already joined and i cant say anything. And its your decision. I can only pray that you wont get into any troubles. Or else if anything happens, your poor girlfriend will have to cry down there and cant do anything uhs.
Monday, November 16 10:59 PM
看到自己爱的人快乐, 痛苦都会变成甜蜜蜜的。♥
Joanne, you seriously sucks ttm (!) You might as well go die la hor. Fcuk sial! I saw something that maybe i shouldnt have gone to see it. Perhaps nothing would affect my mood right now. I'm having gastric pain and meanwhile , i 'm like trying to hold back my tears. But still, i failed once again. Joanne, you're a forever failure la (!) _l_ I happened to view something. I was utterly feeling fcuking upset to the max. I felt that i'm such a failure. *Ahem* knows how to cherish relationship but what about me?! I guessed i was treated like a replacement last time. And all those has caused a damage to my current life because i do still remember how i have gone through, how i really went through in agony during those days. That perhaps might be the reason i'm trying to revenge back on guys?! No idea, my mind like eff-ing confused right now. Worrying about this, worrying about that. Worrying about everything. What the fcuk la, damn asshole. I dont mind if i work like a crazy workaholic if my troubles could go away. I dont mind. I rather work and forget those fcuking things in my mind, than letting my mind think negatively. I felt like asking him for a patch but i guessed i have no rights to do so. Because i was the one who initiated the break first, not knowing how to cherish him, not knowing how to love him even more, not knowing how to treat him better. , so what rights do i have? I dont think there's any rights for me... ... ... ... ... Whatsmore, i am touched by what *ahem* said. Perhaps, youre a better one? But anyw, i think i such a failure. Enough of my rantings, I'm really feeling unwell alr, i dont wanna let my tears drop anymore. I had enough of those in the past and dont really wanna history to repeats itself over and over again . Goodbye guys, takecare. Tomorrow, i still got to go into the office till night. :/
Sunday, November 15 12:04 AM
I'm Completely Worn-Out! D:
{ i'm still not good enough :/ }
yesterday went down to Velocity(citigems) and helped give out flyers. It was like tiring of course. Though many people helped us take the flyers, and the 1000 flyers were given out in like 2 hours. (wow!) But we cant go off. What the fcuk! _l_ so we gave out another 500flyers in 2 hours. We were trying to slow down our pace. Jiahui and me was like super hungry and we sneak to kfc and bought frenchfries and coke. Jiahui ate the french fries and said "heavenly". Laughoutloud. Yesterday from morning to night , i only eaten like abit of french fries and drank 1 coke. Our legs was like so weak from those standing but we had no choice. :/ Whatsmore was that, our back ached alot and almost gonna give up like that. But we didn't . It was fun at least because we got each other company to entertain and chit-chat. :] I wonder if we do alone, what'll happened to both of us. haha. On 27-29nov, we'll be working at woodlands. Yokelin and another girl at yishun. Feel like asking edwin to exchange the venues. At least, at yishun, someone would be kind enough to help me take flyers right? Laughoutloud. Then Jiahui&me wont be that xinku.
I still remember there's two kids kept walking past us with their mum and continously took about 6 flyers from me and jiahui. hahaha. And also, i gave to three malay guys, and i said: " Citigems promotion's on, please take a look. Thankyou". One of them responded me : "you want?" My mind was full of question marks and i burst out laughing at there. There are many unknowns who made us laughoutloud yesterday. I guessed Jiahui's ones were worse than me. I recalled what she told me ytd. There's an old aunty coming up to her and ask her where's citigems. Jiahui pointed to her to the direction where citigems's located. And her reply was oh, levis. Its kind of retarded. We're promoting citigems and she said levis. Lol. And also she was holding onto the citigems flyers. Dont you find these people so amusing? haha. Thanks to them for making our day a great day. Hope today would go fine too.
Last but not least, i need to thank someone for being helpful. Thankyou to someone who initiated that he'll come down and help me buy food, then when i'm eating, he helped me give out the flyers. Laughoutloud. Thanks, you're greatly appreciated but i cant accept :] Because i'll be scolded and lectured by Edwin, confirm guranteeed chop! :/
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- I wondered these few days ... Many questions are inside my mind. I tried to ask someone but he didn't reply me.
- Are you feeling better? Are you still sick? Are you having your meals regularly? Are you still smoking often?
- What are you doing? Where have you been? Why didn't we met concid.? What are you busy with recently?
- But i guessed your life 's better w/o me. but my life sucks w/o you. :/
- Hope you're fine that all. Takecare, bye. IWSLY :]
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- dear jiahui&yokelin,
- i guessed history gonna repeats iteelf again. Still remember how i have gone through for the past "2 and 1/2 years" for loving someone so badly, still remember how i cried terribly last time infront of you both. Still remember the times i totally shag and started slashing my own hand. Still remember i burst out crying in the canteen and its was like so embrassing. Still remember you guys called him and gave him a tongue-lashing? And i cried again for that. Those times were hard to bear but still i gone through well and forget the past already. Thanks to you both and the rest of my friends who were there with me. I have gone through that, and i know how terrible my heart feels. And i told myself never gonna landed up in this state again but ,,,
- I thinks this time 2 and 1/2 years wont be enough for me to endure alr, i need more time. Perhaps, 3years/4 years/5years?! Perhaps i need another guy to enter my heart and touched me again with his love and then maybe i can forget my troubles right now? :/ But right now, i will not cry infront of you guys, i have learnt to control my tears. But sometimes, i do failed too. Hope things will get better for me and him too. & i feel that he will live a better life w/o me. Let time take away my troubles. Let time pass and let nature take its course. Dont you both agreed? :] If we both are meant together, we'll be together. Right? If we doesn't, then let heaven decide what 's our paths for the future. Once over, doesn't turn back just like time. Jiahui&yokelin, thanks for always being thre for me. Trust me, i'll be fine on my own, really (!) You both just helped me pray for his safety and health, and i'll be contented enough. Thanks :)
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Saturday, November 14 8:44 PM
To Me, You're The Best B. Ever & IWSLY.
9:23 AM
I'm Running Away
Falling Apart.
&Breaking Down.
{ Be Strong, Hang on }
Yesterday, i went to selicia's working company (charles&keith) for another inteview. The interviewer asked me if i would like to work under selicia at wisma outlet / ion (orchard). I was like i dont know, and i'm anything de. I will be going through 2 days training at payalebar/eunos district from morning till 7pm, roughly about 10 hours?! And then i will be going down to ion to work as a training student :] And i'll be super busy from now on, my shift's like 10am-10pm?! Omfg, its kinda long and i gonna die liao. But at least, working could perhaps keep my mind clear and not having anymore illusions/ troubles.
And after that , i went to tampiness mall to meetup with edwin, got a hard time trying to spot him in starbucks. He was sitting so inside , whatmore at a corner! I cant actually spot him. After that, took the company t-shirt and then handed him money. Chatted with him regarding the venues, cheques and etc. Left the starbucks and then went for shopping at tampiness central and tampiness mall. I saw a plain glossy legging which costs $49.90 and a normal black jeans costs $99.90. My mum wanted to buy for me and my reply was " Siao ah! " I guessed she know me and him ended le, that why trying to cheer me up or whatsoever. I bought leggings, black jeans, black long t-shirts and total cost spent was like a bomb. And somemore, i think my mum went crazy le, she even said she going give me money to take cab to and fro to work for the 2days training. :] hahaha, wonder what's wrong with my mum?! Has she gone crazy just like i do?!
Ok, today, i shall go to work with jiahui for the flyers distribution under edwin. I already noted down what he said yesterday, every details of what i'm suppose to do. Hope nothing goes wrong for me. :]
To Ahboon:
Sorry for causing you to be so eff-ing stressed up
Dont worry about me, i'll be fine. Really.
I still got you guys for me, didn' i?
Takecare, of him and others. Bye.
Thursday, November 12 4:15 AM
EVERYTHING ENDED!
I couldnt get to sleep now, so shall update for my last post. Totally lost my sense of mind, feeling so lost. I dont know what shall i do next :/ I'm trying hard to suppress my feelings but still ahboon can read what i am thinking. Hopefully, i can break through. Shall get back to my blog when i'm feeling better . IWSLYD! :]
To Jinqiang: Thanks for being my stead for 1 month plus. I really cherish the days/times that we were together. But i am really sorry. Joanne just sucks being a good girlf of yours. Hope that you'll find a better girl next time. Takecare good care of yourself whn i'm not around.
IWSLYD , bye.
To Marcus: I'm Sorry for doing those foolish things le, i wont do it anymore. Thankyou for being thre for me ytd and chatting with me trying to make me cheerup. What you've done are greatly appreciated. Thankyou, seeya in the afternoon. :]
To Ahboon: Thanks for the advices you gave me but now, i guessed i dont need it alr. Its over and impossible. Thanks for trying to pull me out of my ways, sometimes i do really wishes to go back the ways i used to be. Really. Running taxes, photoshoot, drinking etc. But you have been the one kept trying to advise me. I really thinks that you are really a good brother. Takecare of him, anything just sms me /call me. :)
To Sisters(clique) : Dont worry, i 'll be fine. Just take good care of him and i shall be ok. Anything just text me up. Thanks, love you all.
To Jiahui&Kerlyn: Sorry, not that i doesn't want to share with you the troubles i had, but i had no idea where or even how to start. I'm really trying to suppress all my feelings in me. I dont want be like last time crying like fcuking pathetic at sunplaza, in school or anywhere. He's the 2nd guy i truely love in all my relationships but i guessed everytime i wanna love someone, i just failed in the relationship. _l_ I dont want myself to lose control of my tears infront of you guys again. Time is all i need now. I just need some time to forget everything . Be it 1 year/2 years or ... I have gone through it once and i know its tough. But i gonna hang on. I'll be fine and happy when i have overcome my feelings. But right now, i just need some time to refresh myself. Forget about everything, Forget about love , forget about the word "forever" . forget about the words " ily" and last but now least, forget about the word "you". it tough, it hurt and it sucks. I shall be strong hopefully~
Monday, November 2 7:08 AM
XiaoJ Feels Totally Shag Today! :/
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{ taken at sembawang arcade, XiaoJ&Ahchua }
Today, we both went to sembawang sunplaza to look for jobs. We both applied for Popular and Bata. Hangten's recruiting people right now, i guessed so. But long working hours , wth, plus they may send you to other areas. South, east or even west. Pay's like $1300 + per month only. Laughoutloud. So this job's out of jiahui and my mind already. Tomorrow's higher mother tongue papers, shall go to woodlands and sembawang shopping centre with yokelin and jiahui to look for jobs. I went to find boyf today a while, dont know whether its a mistake to go there sial, no idea what. Perhaps now only Jiahui understand how i feel.
dear boyf
sorry for hiding things from you again. :/ Let me think it through before telling you everything.
Give me some time, maybe few hours, few days or even few weeks. Let me sort it out first.
I had no idea whether what i am thinking will come true or just my imagination only.
Jealousy kills?! Dont wanna lose you, my dear. Hai, I'm like super shag now. _l_
Sorry boyf. Really sorry.
Anyw, iloveyou!
goodnight.
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Recently, I have been ...
I now looking for jobs, and i have apply for several ones already. But now, i'm officially working under Edwin. To distribute flyers for citigems and attend a event for the job. Jiahui and Yokelin had already sent in their resume. I hope that Edwin would recruit together them. :D I have applied for suntec city, sembawang shopping centre (cotton on) too, xmas promoters at expo etc. Hope i would be recruit-ed. All these are part time only, maintain for like 1 month - 3month at most ba. :) After the olevel, i shall get my hair dye, but i cant highlight pink. I'm afraid that boyf's family would think i'm an ahlian so i shall dye golden brown or maybe red? :) I still got 3days to endure olevel examinations. Jiayou!
(& also lesser time to accompany boyf. I two days never meet him le :/ )
I now looking for jobs, and i have apply for several ones already. But now, i'm officially working under Edwin. To distribute flyers for citigems and attend a event for the job. Jiahui and Yokelin had already sent in their resume. I hope that Edwin would recruit together them. :D I have applied for suntec city, sembawang shopping centre (cotton on) too, xmas promoters at expo etc. Hope i would be recruit-ed. All these are part time only, maintain for like 1 month - 3month at most ba. :) After the olevel, i shall get my hair dye, but i cant highlight pink. I'm afraid that boyf's family would think i'm an ahlian so i shall dye golden brown or maybe red? :) I still got 3days to endure olevel examinations. Jiayou!
(& also lesser time to accompany boyf. I two days never meet him le :/ )
Saturday, October 31 12:07 PM
CRYING AIN'T THE SOLUTION OF EVERYTHING.
( i dont wanna everything to end off just like this; but what can i do? ) _l_
Sorry, i always make you worry for me.
its seemed to me breakup 's the solution to solve your problems
& not only that, save you from your misery & save you from all xinku or whatever.
I cry and i cry but still i made the decision and you, respected it.
There's a gap between us alr, because of the misunderstanding btw you, me and him.
I dont know what can i do to solve this problem and clear away this gap in between us.
No trust in him equals to no trust in me. And gradually i lost the trust in you, no trust = no relationship.
No matter what happen, i will love you and i dont wanna lose you.
I hope that this relationship wont let go and stay forever and forever.
Your baby shall apologized to you for the unhappy things that happen-ed.
Can we both start all over again(?)
Friday, October 30 8:39 AM
Goodbye (?)
It was you guys who started all this first,
you guys meetup without even telling me .
You guys walk-ed off after exam w/o telling me.
Just walk off only, just only. Just walk out of school only.
Then what are sisters for?! Ignore one of them? (fcuk la hor)
Then i think its like meaningless for the word sister to exist in the dict.
So now, you guys are guess-ing that i alr found replacement(s) from elsewhere.
sorry uhs, you guys are mistaken about it. No one' can replace you guys, you guys rank above my boyf leh.
If you know me well, you should know sisters rank no.1 boyf rank no.2. No changes made after year... ...
If you wanna think that I will find replacement or what, then let it be. because i dont even know what to say le.
i got so much of unhappiness in me wanted to share with you guys.
Because you guys did mention to me before, anything just text or find you guys talk.
But now, how? Ignoring my presence ,and i have to also ignore you guys too. Its' like super hard.
And now, we're like a thousand thousand thousand (S) miles away from one another. Ohgosh, like super far?!
( no interaction, no conversation equals to no friendship/sistership ? )
Thursday, October 15 10:17 AM
JOANNE, XiaoJ's Officially 16 On 15Oct!
Eugene's officially 14 on the 14oct.
Boonping's officially 18 on the 16oct.
thanks boyf for everything he have done. Me love you!
Thanks to those who came to my house
boonping, yvonne, sharon, chriscilia, liyan,qianwei, dion, eugene,edwin, leehan
(sorry if i missed out your name)
Thankyou to the 68friends out there who sent me happy birthday message(s)
Thankyou to the 32friends out there who sent me friendster message(s)/ comments.
And last but not least , thanks to those who gave me cards and other stuffs.
-Yokelin, Jiahui, ElijhahK, Meixian, Yazhen, Vivian, Kent, Soonkiat, Yvonne.
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LAST FEW DAYS...
I have been studying, going to school, skipping lessons and attending a few night classes, And also i have been meeting my boyf but only for a short short while. :/ And guess what, on my birthday, one bitch totally spoil-ed my mood. I guess-ed those who are very close to me should surely know that bitch(!) Hope she would one day get into a big , bigger, biggest trouble ever ... Ok, i shall end here, or else boyf would be upset.
On 18oct, i had a talk with yvonne, boonping, dion and fish and boonping never failed to talk things calmly out and explained everything to us. What a good listening ear and speaker is he! I think that everyone loves to share his/her woes to boonping because he's the best speaker among all. He knows how to predict what would happen and what the person would do next. Amazing power he has, Laughoutloud. Sometimes I feel so happy to pour out my unhappiness to him, and he would never failed to help us out. He would put down his things and zoommmmm~ ( come) to find us and talk things out, he's such a good friend/brother. Thanks for the things you have help-ed me and thanks for stopping my boyf to act recklessly. Boonping rocks (!)
Aha! Boyfriend dont jealous alrights. You're also very good. Just that i hope you dont find the persons' troubles. We only sms-ed one another and did no wrong. Dont jealous uhs, whats more, i already shared with you the sms-es they sent so cannot be so petty alrights. You know i love you jiu can le, and must have trust in me. Ohyeah, my olvel 's coming soon in 3 days time. I think i will not even get to meet you cos i need to study hard and get into a poly at least. But i'm sure after my olevels , i have plenty time for you.
Wednesday, October 7 8:09 AM
I SKIPPED SCHOOL AGAIN! :D
I'm just too tired for school and perhaps maybe i gg down to town to find friends!
I'm in no mood to study alr, somewhat lost all of my confidence already!
My mind only contains MrZ , i dont know why too.
Maybe I love him too much alr. (:
maybe is just that idw study?!
HECKCARE!
bye!
Sunday, October 4 10:20 PM
Mid-Autumn Festival
I spent my day at yokelin house studying and do-ing some secret stuffs till 10pm. After that, went out to meet MrZ. He came all the way from canberra.p. to yokelin house there wanting to fetch me home. But i chang-ed my mind. We went to find ahboon, fish, dion, sharon, yvonne and big edwin. Its' was kinda sad that we actually spent our time like that. Slack-ed and then went off to busstop. I totally no mood to face MrZ for some reasons so i cabbed home alone, without him sending me home. Sorry, MrZ . But i love you only!
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XIAOJ SAYS: I love my boyf and i hope we'll last long forever and ever. But I'm feeling rather sad now, because i had no phone to text up my boyf and i wonder which kind soul would lend me. I couldn't text up fidel as i forgot his number alr. :/ I miss my boyf badly and i want to text him up right now. I want a phone to appear infront of me now so that i can text him up immediately (!)(!)(!)(!)(!)
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TAGS REPLIES
To Sharon: hahaha, yeah. Later my boyf will jealous one. Laughoutloud. But i cant deny that the photo in your blog (the guy) very handsome. hahaha.
To Jolene: Laughoutloud. I'm rather lazy to go school alr. i didnt saw you at sp.
To Mandy: Thanks girlf for tagging. Me love you! <3
To Hoshi: Yeah, meetup soon! (: Happy birthday in advance. Lets count down our days to 15oct.
To Kristin: Thanks, kristin sister. if not for you, we wont be together.
To 陳豈賢: sorry, wo hui fa hui jian xun gei ni.
To Yvonne.A: Follow your heart is the key! :D Sharon and me will be there for you(!)
To ♥Adelyn : Laughoutloud. Who do you think i will be attached to? A girl or a boy?! Of course is guy la. hahahaha, thanks for the previous tag! :D Yeah, i found my MrRight already.
Friday, October 2 5:32 PM
I Love MrZ & I Meant What I Said! :)
{ MrZ, my best boyf* }
Dear MrZ,
We started our relationship on 290909. It was such a nice date right. I still recalled the timing (1pm) we both first agreed to stead together. I couldn't believe in another relationship anymore. But it was you who promised me everything would turn out fine, and you will not treat me the way i was treated in the past. Your words touched me in my heart and i decided to give one another a chance to start a new bgr.
After 2 and 1/2 days being together, i felt happy and somewhat xingfu to the max la. because you're always the one coming to my voiddeck to meet me and even send me to attend my grandmother songka. Not only that, you would lend me your shoulders to lean on whenever i feel tired. I still remember for once, i had a headache at home. And it was you again who is there for me. When i told you i dont like you smoke alot and then i would say that later you smoke until you die then you know, and your reply was: i smoke lesser alr. I know you have smoke lesser for my sake. Thanks for everything you have done for me and youre the last one i ever wanted alr. :D
Truthfully, i think you're best boyf i ever had. (: You always never fail to spare a thought for me. When i said i was busy, and unable to meet you or even i said i had to study, you would let me be in my own way. Don't worry, i will try to make time for you and i hope you will too. You will be starting school on monday alr, and i wondered if you ever had time to accompany me anot alr. Whats more, you even have lion dance at night and me myself is gonna have olevel in 20plus days. I guessed our time being together will be less, lesser & lesser (s).
Oh ya, i promised you i will not wear those types of clothing to go out with friends. I know its for my own good and i know how to protect my ownself. Even if i doesn;t know, there is you who will know how to protect me. hahahaha. Last but not least, I'll try my very best to be a good girlf of yours uhs. & i hope we both will last long, must really lastlong leh. Though i am always saying to you that on the 12th we break up and we'll find new stead, thats was all a lie. I am only joking with you. I never ever want you to leave me and neither will i leave you too. Ok, i shall end here soon because i need my sleep alr. I will text you up later when i wake up. I love MrZ and i meant what i said.
Thursday, October 1 12:13 PM
YAY! I DID NOT ATTEND SCHOOL FOR 2DAYS ALREADY :)
{ these two days i will be sticking to MrZ tightly :D }
yesterday stayed at home after gg to songka, and then went to meet MrZ. Slacked at the usual place and chatted with MrZ, lihan, yvonne and sharon. We had a long long chat and then MrZ accompanied me to yishun to take bus 851. Thanks, and then off he went to his temple. I miss him badly so kept texting him. MrZ's well-behaved, he did not smoke that much alr. :D
Today, i didnt attend school too. I will be meeting my Mr Z soon, super happy. & he gonna pei me to amk. Oops, i forgot to text back to his messages. hahahaha. Later will be slacking at usual place then go down to songka alr.
As for tomorrow, i wont be going to school too. Simply because its tired and i need go songka again. I guess tomorrow i can' t meet MrZ alr. :/
Tuesday, September 29 10:51 AM
I'll try to hold on to you, Mr Z!
{I'll miss you MrZ }
SUNDAY
Yokelin came to my house in the afternoon to do homework. After that, texted Law and many people. We arranged to meet Lawerence and asked him to teach us physics and history. So we went to yokelin house to get her stuffs and then meet up with lawerence. As usual, we went to the same studying place. We did our work and study, plus playing of games. We actually did our work till 12 in the midnight. We then walked to the playground to play. Yokelin fell down twice and i fell off once, super embrassing. I guess yokelin and lawerence had a great time there studying and playing like crazy. Home sweet Home at around 1am. :)
MONDAY
I went late to school, i was in a depressed mood. Thanks to yokelin and that fit PE teacher entertaining me :D Attended school till 12pm. Then i just went out of the school and walk-ed home. Meetup with sister and brother then cabbed down to amk. Prepare things for the songka and help-ed out till 4plus.
Bus-ed and train-ed back to sembawang to meet Jiahui and others. We went to block 332 again and as usual lots of distraction. We didn't do any homework and we played poker cards. I took the poker cards out of fish's bag and started playing alr. After that, Jinqiang disappeared with his friend to save his sister from the 5 bangalas. Laughoutloud. Send jiahui back home at around8pm, i think. Slack-ed at the voiddeck and thinking of something, after that, thanks to xiaogui (brother) for sending me to mama shop there. Reached home at about 9plus pm. I was super tired and no energy. Plus i also not feeling well as i didn't eat anything from morning to night. So i went to rest about half an hour.
Stupid sister, asked me go outside to buy foods for her. Luckily Jinqiang's kind enough to pei me go. I was walking like a zombie at 10.30 in the middle of somewhere. Laughoutloud. Then when i reach home, my sister said you never buy my drink then i walk-ed out of the house again. Jinqiang then accompanied me to the vending machine to buy then send me home. Thanks ah! Your kindness is appreciated. (: I slept a while and then around 1pm, i went out again. I wonder if i can tahan till friday anot. Hope i dont collapse.
TUESDAY
Today morning,I dont feel like gg school but i dont want pangseh jiahui and yokelin. So i meetup with jinqiang to go school. But i think its too early so went to meetup with yokelin at her school. We walk-ed to school and reached about 7.55am. Heng ar, not 8am. or else will be late. Attended lesson till 1.40pm. I went back home with jiahui. I packed my things and meet MrZ downstairs at my block. He tio screen. Laughoutloud! After that, we sat in MrZ's friend car. it was quite fast and my head bang-ed four times. Thanks ah, he drove us there. I didn't went for any extra lesson in school instead i went out to study at the usual place with jiahui. I did 2 comprehension and 1 chemistry worksheet. In fact, i didn't do much really. Because i was busy bio-ing Mr Z.
The study area had become a gambling place whereby many people brought their poker cards and played at there. hahaha. Thanks to Boonping for lending me his book to revise for my olevel. We Played poker cards awhile and then i went with Mr Z to take his liondance shirt at home and went back to there to study again. I have already memorized the formulas for physics. MrZ pei me took bus and then he went to his lion dance alr. Homesweethome at around8pm but i'm going out soon. Because nobody's at home and i going to meetup with my parents i guessed so. i shall end now because Mr Z has already text me up and i need to reply.
Tuesday, September 22 10:54 AM
MONDAY
{I said : lastlong}
TUESDAY
Early in the morning, i woke up and finished my olevel art preparatory work. Sorry to Shawn that i can't go out and meet him. At around evening, i went to sunplaza to look for Jinqiang. Since he accompanying me to SSC, i shall say that he has balls.After reaching sunplaza, i wanted find jinqiang but he's with his friends ( dennis, wenchang and weiren). I waited for Shawn and his friend and then accompanied him. He went puff-ing. Saw amandaeve,liyan,melinda and a pretty girl which i forgotten her name. hahaha.
After that, went back to find dennis, wenchang, weiren and jinqiang. Thanks for them to pei me go ssc. But halfway here and there, walked to jinqiang house cos he needs to take his lion dance tee and then went to wenchang house cos he dont want go with them alr. Walked back to sp, they meetup with their friend and i took bus home. Thanks jinqiang lots, :D
WEDNESDAY
As usual i hang-ed out with those people from 322 basketball court. Sorry to shawn, i felt somehow guilty for calling him come down, lying to him and kena make him beat up by others. I'm really sorry, hope there's no more 3rd time for you. God bless you, and i guess we wont be friends anymore. Bye!
THURSDAY
i went home with jiahui and then got change-d. Thanks jiahui for pei-ing me to ssc to buy a stupid card which my sister wants to buy. After that, bus-ed back to sp. Jinqiang, ahboon( not chaiboon, lol! ) and his groups of friends were at sp upstairs swimming. Jiahui and me waited for them to come down to mac. Waited a while, and then we walk-ed to basketball court. Jiahui left me alone and she went home. Omfg, i saw levin, my friend whom i had lost contact with. LOL! Sharon and yvonne as usual emo-ing at one corner. The rest sat around like a circle. My hair stinks cos their cig smoke blew towards my hair. hahaha. I had a long time with Qianwei. (ILOVEQIANWEI) :D After that, sat down and play poker cards. Slack-ed till 6pm and then went for tuition till night. I'm super vexed over my studies and i want to give up. Anybody wanna help me ?!
Saturday, September 19 9:41 PM
Heaven Decide My Fate...
{ I hate useless guys}
SATURDAY
Early in the morning, i woke up late and went to school for art. I have to complete my olevel canvas, luckily i managed to finish. Thanks for the help i received! (: I went back home at 12plus and then had a quick bathe. I meetup with chubby diana. We went sunplaza to slack, saw chunleng,xinhao. Omg! Chunleng seems to become more handsome i guessed so. Oh man, no one to entertained us so we walked around at sunplaza. The salon guy so handsome to the max, i looked inside and he was sitting down there. He did noticed us, i think. We saw a group of guys, somewhat including louis's brother, one whole big gang sial.
We walked down to block 322 to find Adrian and Eugene. They were playing basketball at there. We cam-whored for quite a long time and joined them at the basketball court. At first, it was so bored and i know no body at all except eugene. But after that, chatted and slacked for quite some time and i knew some new friends! Diana went off early to woodlands to meet her "friend". I continued to slack at there. I played poker cards and couldn't play basketball at all because i was wearing a butterfly tee which has two big openings at the side. I had diffculty raising my hands too, Laughoutloud. Jinqiang also came to the basketball court and he played his balls. Omfg, Jinqiang, do you have any balls left?! I purposely wrote that because i know he will confirm read my blog. I can guarranteed that! :D Jinqiang and me versus one pair of twin brothers. Jinqiang and me lost to them because i took away jinqiang's good cards. hahaha!
I decided to go home first but ended up, i arranged to meet Chunsiang at the voiddeck and then back to the basketball court. Continued to slack till night... I saw that eff-ing bitch. Oh gosh, kuatiogui! May you taste the feeling of abandoned like what my friend has gone through. I machan like see ghost at night, when the 7month has been over. I think her spirits still wandering around, its so irritating sial! I also saw birdbird, desmond, daxiang etc. Oh man, birdbird and daxiang so cute. Laughoutloud. Damn it, Shawn/Shaun had opened my wallet and saw my uglam ic/ezlink. Oh man, its so embrassing sial, such a difference. Hahaha. HomesweetHome @8pm. I shall end here because i'm on phone with meixian and i going to call my new friend soon! Lastly, I love my friends for sure!
Tuesday, September 15 12:07 PM
I Have 200Photos Of Her In My HandPhone! :)
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{XiaoJ & AhChua}
THURSDAY
oh dear, my brother, NgJweeKen didn't come to school for two days alr, hope he recover faster from his illness. Kerlyn kam yokelin as usual didn't come school, i expected it , i guessed so. Laughoutloud. She stayed at her home to do her art which is due on friday. I haven even finish it, i 'm left with 6 boards. Omfg, I really need assistance in my art. Thanks daphne, jiahui, joey,fion, ronghua,elijahkwan, yokelin,tingjin, meixian and etc. I had a lot of helpers! I love you guys. (muacks!) I shall update my blog when i had the time again.
Wednesday
Oh man, yokelin and i didn't get enough sleep and we both landed up in a sleepy situation in class. I was worse than her. I had to wake up at 6am while she still happily sleeping in my room. I went to school half-dead. I think perhaps the whole class knows i was in a sleepy mood... I slept in amaths lesson and almost doze off during english lesson. But thanks to Mrslee jokes, i woke up. I didn't even do anything such as homework or whatever, i just kept lying on my table till the school ends. I'm not fit to be in school today, i guessed.
Tuesday,
yokelin came to my house to stay overnight. We chiong-ed to do art and managed to finish some of it and we watched television programme from 5.30pm till 11.00pm. We couldn't sleep at night & chatted , sharing the past of ours till 2pm. What an exciting night i had. We both were like so high & couldn't fall asleep.
11:46 AM
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Zoo Outing On Friday with Emily, Joyce, Jiahui!
One word to say : Fun!
Ok, lets the pictures to do the talking...
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Wednesday, September 2 12:03 PM
MONDAY
I shouldnt have gone to school. Because the programmes at school was super sian except for the funny counsellors dance.Laughoutloud. I waited for yokelin to come school and we stayed back for art to finish up our canvas. unfortunately, we didn't do much at all. We chiong-ed home to bathe, and i met up with jiahui to do teachers' day cards.I bought a big piece of congregrated board and i had to carry it around with me :/ We went to macdonald as usual and chatted with emily, bryna and joyce. They kept laughing at my broken english. For goodness sake, i'm already trying very hard to brush up my english, so dont laugh uhs.
jiahui accompanied me to arcade at around 6.3opm. I asked jiahui pei me play the tokens machine but she left around 7.30pm. I stayed in the arcade still with the accompany of my new friend, Jave. I waited for jermaine to come to sunplaza but she is still at amk at that time. Until 9pm, she's finally back with roystern and joe. Sorry to Darrel for pangseh-ing him again. I promised to go lion dance accompany him but i broke my promise. Sorry X1000 times or even millions! I stayed at the arcade till 9plus and took bus859 home with jave. HomesweetHome at 10pm, just in time to watch my show.
TUESDAY
I went to mac to do up the teachers' day cards again. I waited for joyce to come sunplaza and then trained down to woodlands to pass reichin and kimberly the pink colour metal frame wallets. Trained back to sembawang again, i had the urge to play arcade so i went to play and i forgot the timing for my tuition. I was late for 20 mins. Laughoutloud. I'm obessed with my arcade games already. Saw yuxuan, asked her pei me play. but she doesn't want to play. After that , Jave came and played the machine which is beside mine. Then Some people came, i shall not mentioned the names. super pissed off because they won against me. I lost several times to them so i went back to arcade again after my tuition at 7pm. Jermaine and me played against each other and the guys came back again. We played against them and i got pissed off again. Sorry for showing jiajun attitude because they are his brothers' friends. But after talking to two of them, i realised they aint as bad as what i'm thinking. :/ I wasted lots of money today. HomeSweetHome @ 9.30pm.
Friday, August 21 11:57 PM
HEAVEN DECIDE OUR FATES! :/
{ I loveeee Daphhhhhh }
I ruined my English Olevel Oral by being rude to the both of the examiners from other school. I didn't know why. I just blurted out: Can you don't be so fierce?! Oops, i didn't realised it was rude afterall, hope it goes well.
FRIDAY
Today i had my first day of examinations for my prelim. Oh gosh, it was thoroughly super sucks. I spent 1hourplus to do my article which was 3 pages long and i'm left with half an hour to do my composition. Oh my goodness, i didn't even have time to write my composition. Worse still, i haven even write till the mainpoint yet. I guess the contents would be 0-1 marks. I'm super irritated when i didn't get to finish my composition. :/
What's worse was that i know what is coming out for social studies. But i only know how to do half of the whole essay question. Fcuk sial. All the sources based questions i had no idea what to do and i anyhow pom answers to it, and i don't even understand what the question was asking. I;m gonna disappoint Miss Ng again :(
Accompanied Kristin to the bustop, then went home. Hope she 'll do well of her English Oral. :) Bathed and got dressed and went for my tuition. I didn't have my breakfast nor lunch and had to wait till 5.30pm to eat. Joyce, Yokelin and me went to milkk cafe and we enjoyed our Lunch-es or maybe should i said is dinner? hahaha. I ordered a bun and a kidset, one can of rootbeer and i bought 2 tiger biscuits. But i gave one to a greedy joyce (not the one in our school, but evergreen sec ) Laughoutloud. :D HomesweetHome !
Friday, August 14 12:45 PM
LOVE DOESN'T EQUATE TO HAPPINESS! :(
These few days i have been slacking and not studying. I shall start elaborating...
SATURDAY
I meet up with jweeken and chaiboon to go bishan to collect chaiboon's phone. We went Long John Silver and we ate the $4.40 combo. Chaiboon and Jweeken won a $899 Laptop Thingy and i suggested that they should give me a share too. LOL! I told them to sell away and give me $100 and the rest they spilt themselves. hahahaha. :) Train-ed back to sembawang and studied at macdonald. Unfortunately, macdonald's packed! So the one whole group of us left and some went to cavana while elijahlim,chaiboon,jweeken,reichin,keith,weimin,yongzhang and me went kopitiam. Slacked there while waiting for keith to eat finish his ice-kachang. Went over to cavana and settle down. Wow, cavana 's packed with canberrans. Cool~ Weimin, yongzhang and me went over to keith house to help paint his room. Waited for reichin to come as she went tuition earlier on. At about 6pm-7.30pm, yongzhang,weimin,keith,reichin and me painted only one side of the wall. Keith didn't did much infact i think his brother did the most in helping his mother with the chores. Hey keith, you should learnt from your brother. Pizza treats from keith's mum. Thanks ah! :D Everyone left except me. Keith and me went over to chaiboon house for some ritual. I kneeled down twice and my knees went numb, keith too, i think. Okeh, i shall not elaborate on because i'm very afraid of this ritual. This is the third time i seeing it. I'm really really scared indeed. Home sweet Home @ 10pm.
SUNDAY
I went to school for english language oral at canteen about 3.30pm. Meetup with lixin and elijahk. Settled down for oral and i think i learnt quite alot for the picture discussion. I kept looking at chaiboon as i wondered is his spirit has came back to him. I'm really very afraid of him. I stared at him non-stop and i sent him sms-es too. After seeing that he could still laugh and joke, i'm more relaxed. That goes to show the real chaiboon's back. Left the school at about 5.30pm. Walk-ed to keith house again. Wow, reichin is already there. Woots! (get what i meant, keith?) Laughoutloud. I phoned Yongzhang and said Limbei want you come now. The next moment he is already arrived in keith house. Fast right?! We started to slack at keith house. I used keith wax to put on his cousin hair. Guess what?! , his cousin screamed like fcuking hell. Omfg, he also went to wash his entire hair when i only applied a bit of the wax sial. Its too exaggerating. Chaiboon, jweeken,kent,fusheng,fonia came to keith house too. I left about 8pm, i think so. :D Homesweethome finally~
Wednesday, August 12 2:16 PM
I MISS-ING YOU FROM DAY TO NIGHT :)
{ Where the hell are you?! }
MONDAY
I went out with kristin sister, super sian staying at home. What more, my irritating father was at home too. So i can't stand a minute with him at home. Went sunplaza with kristin, went library borrow books and then walk-ed to arcade play my favourite ddr. Went down to macdonald and slack at there. I asked Kristin to call any of her friends come down entertain me talk cock. Laughoutloud. Kristin then called Jinqiang. At first, there was not much talk after that Jinqiang began to entertain us with his Lame Jokes. It was extremely cold though the macdonald air-con was down. (get what i meant? ) Went back to arcade. Jinqiang never give me and kristin face, he doesn't want to play ddr with me. :/ He play his drum mania. Wow, saw my mother and brother there too. :) My little brother stalk-ed me instead of my mum. Laughoutloud.
After that, followed Jinqiang to the basketball court beside Sembawang Sec. Kristin and me both super sian. I kept sms-ed Chunsiang, wanting him to come and entertain us. Laughoutloud. Then Jinqiang and Chunsiang sat on the ground while me and kristin were sitting on the benches. We had a long talk about balls, basketball , (JQ&CS dont anyhow think uhs) I told Chunsiang and kristin that i'm really damn bored and they both answered me the same way. Bio those guys, but they aren't handsome at all . :/ We watched them play basketball there till 7plus pm and then homesweethome ~
Wednesday, August 5 5:53 PM
It's Tired Of Me To Walk Round & Round In The Arcade
To Avoid Two Unknown :/
FRIDAY
National Day Celebration in school totally sucks, there' was only the prinicpal speech, speech after speech(s). I regretted coming to school. I went to school because i thought yokelin was going too, ended up she was at home. My mother agreed with me, its just a waste of time gg school for 2 hours. After that, went home to change and went sunplaza slack.
Yokelin, Jiahui accompanied me to arcade play my ddr, jiahui played her sensor. Till now, i have yet to find someone to teach me Maxtune. Damn jovin, he said he want to teach me but haven :/ Walk-ed down to macdonald, wow, saw quite a few friends :D I ate my MacValue Lunch~ Next time, i gonna eat my Happy Meal, cos i find the toy very cute, its hello kitty! Laughoutloud. After eating, we're supposed to study but i ended up going arcade while they studied.
I went to arcade twice, and i saw a pri6 boy had steal a pri3 kids tokens. I was super pissed off, many of us were scolding him yet there isn't any expression. Many guys crowded around him and he had no exp. Torbis hit him hard on his head using a bottle, no exp still. Then Darryl's two friends ate sweets and spit at him. No expression still. Jovin asked him, if he understands all of us were talking. Yes, was his reply. But When Jovin asked whether he want to return the tokens, he shook his head! Omfg, he irritated the whole lot of us. Guessed what, I dont like bullying a pri6, seriosly and i not the type who will shoot at him purposely. The next moment, i hit his head, kick his seat several times, scream into his ear with liyan and pull his ear etc. But there' wasn't any expression still. Jiajun and many people wasted alot of effort talking to him/scolding him. We all are not after the money he took, just wanted him to learnt his lesson and don't took others' tokens. We're teaching him, not bullying. But he didn't want to heed our advices and continued to be stubborn. NgJunwei and Meihui came, and they tried talking to him. We thought that maybe different peoples talk to him, will got miracles happened. But still, no expression. We all super eff-ing irritated. Junwei then hold onto a toy gun and point at him. Some even said, Mata! Laughoutloud. I tried both soft and hard tactics on him but its useless. The arcade aunties wanted to call cops/security guard come settle then liyan they all said no need. I wonder if the pri6 boy from canberra primary is a wooden block?!
Yokelin and jiahui sms-ed me and said they're leaving so i went down to mac to collect my stuffs then back to arcade. Saw Jweeken and elijah eating away~ I walk-ed back to arcade to play ddr with liyan. I''m happy to know Darryl and his groups of friends including rubberband. Nice to know you guys. They went puff puff and almost kena caught by security guard so went other place . Stay in the arcade till 7pm and then walk-ed with darrel they all. After that, the guys went for their lion dance while me and liyan went home. :D
Friday, July 31 6:45 PM
For God So Loved The World That He Gave His Begotten Son
That Whosoever Believe In Him Should Not Perish But Have Ever-Lasting Life. { John3:16 }
{where've you been? Lost track of you}
Monday
Lesson was super tired, i had to walk 2.4km. After walking 2.4km, i went back to the class. Some of my classmates went back to the class too. Unfortunately, we tio caught by that irritating and naggy Mr Lok. We had to walk another 2.4km as a punishment. Guess what, we're left with only 15minutes to walk to and fro. Super pissed off by Mr Lok's nasty comments. We attended physics lesson, totally 0 mood to attend class. I lied onto the table to rest. In additional to my 0 mood, i still had to attend amaths lesson. It was terribly tired for me. I shouldn't have attended the school. I think in no time, i gonna fell sleep . History as usual, slacked. Got teacher equals to no teacher. Laughoutloud. Social Studies, got somewhat scolded by Ms Ng because i lied onto the table again and i gave her attitude. Oops! I apologised for that part uhs. I must respect my teachers ! :D In the past, i dont even know how to respect teachers properly, but now i do. Emaths lesson, i did my work, surprisingly. I had no idea why. I just felt that my sudden mood of doing homework came so i did it.
Tuesday
Thanks ElijahK for sms-ing me in the morning. Woots! I went school early today. Yay! Social Studies lesson, we watched a super touching video on health care in America, Britain,Cuba. I almost cry. Chemistry lesson , 4 periods. We did experiment today, fun was the only word to describe. Ronghua and me went for H.Mother Tongue Lesson while others attended English Lesson in class. They did the English Paper 1 Mock Exam in class. Ronghua and me went off after 1 hour of H. MT Lesson and went back class to do our Mock Exam. I wrote a super chim , touching story on "Time". I said that Time ended for the both of us. Ended completely... ... Though most of the parts are unreal, but the feelings i wrote was real. (know what i meant?) Attended Sciences Asp after school. I'm gonna meet yokelin, joyce soon at the usual place and at the usual time.
Friday, July 24 5:32 PM
YESTERDAY IS A HISTORY, TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY,
TODAY IS A GIFT SO TREASURE IT!
This few days, i had been very busy going out so i shall not elaborate. Yay! Later, i'll be going down to bugis to shopshop. Ok, i shall elaborate my typical school days for Wednesday, Thursday & Friday.
WEDNESDAY
After school, yokelin, daphne and me attended emaths asp but skipped the amaths asp because we're too tired. We all went home and we had to write the parents letter. I guess-ed i should write it on my own and let my parents sign on it, so it will be more convienent. Laughoutloud! :D
THURSDAY
I was late as usual, came to school at 8am. First lesson, i missed it. As for Mother Tongue Lesson, our class went to do a stupid survey, i did quite fast with daphne and we both surf-ing the nets. Laughoutloud! Amaths Lesson, i was slacking. I just lied onto my table, just only. Art Lesson, i painted my canvas, and somehow it was ruined because colour doesn't seems to be matching. History lesson, Zhiyan and me went late for the class. zhiyan and me were using the phone to see photos, just ignoring the new teacher who kept walking past us. Irritating Teacher~ English Lesson was quite interesting. All those words " kaobei, TLP", and many many vulgarities surfaced in our class. Cool Right?! hahahaha. We definitely love our english teacher afterall though she scolded us sometimes. But we, 4e3, know that she scold us is for our own good :D (hope mrs lee see this ^^) hahahaha. As for the last period, chemistry lesson, the new teacher came in. Mr Tan was not in school :/ No lesson for us, super bored. I listened to my music as i was doing my work. After school, i attended asp. (:
FRIDAY
Today school was as usual boring and i was late again :) I was extremely tired. Amaths Lesson, i did nothing. I just slacked behind the class, and used my handphone. My handphone was confiscated by Mr dinesh because i called my parents regarding my brother's condition. He didn't give me chance to explain, but its ok. Emaths lesson, i felt life-less without my handphone. No mood to pay attention, just lied onto the table to rest. Yokelin, Daphne and me gossiped today! Laughoutloud. Yokelin, its time to have confrontation, i guess-ed. Or maybe a conference?! PC lesson, Mr tan returned me my phone after knowing my explanation. Mr Tan Rocks! I attended Higher Mother TOngue Class for Half an hour and then went back to class to do my homework. I wanted to skip English Asp, but failed thoroughly. Joyce , Meixian and me gave Yokelin moral support regarding something. Yokelin, you ought to have a talk/confrontation/ conference soon with* Believe what Joyce and me think. There'll be times you will be taken advantage of or even taken for granted. But trust me, Joyce and me wont! hahahaha. Touched yeah?! Oh ya, want to buy the nude slippers? Laughoutloud. (know what i meant!)
Thursday, July 23 3:29 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAM YOKELIN! :)
{Happy Birthday To Kerlyn Kam Yokelin In Advance}
Today, i was supposed to meet kristin go school de, but i was late so she went in first. I met joyce on the way, she is late too. hahahaha. worst of all, kam yokelin's the latest. She came at 8.10am. Ronghua and me went off early for higher mother class. Woah, i did my work and paid attention to Yip's lesson. :D Amaths Lesson, i sat beside yokelin and we're busily talking instead of doing. Took photos of my dearest model, daphneeeee chew ruiting. I love her! :D Look at her blog for more further photos and details! Art Lesson, i didn't paint much again. Repaint my canvas the 7th layer, o.o History lesson, chitchat with yokelin. Chemistry lesson, super tired alr. I asked Mr Tan a question and he asked me why am i so fierce today?! Laughoutloud, i'm just tired to smile or laugh at the end of the period.
Skipp-ed History Asp and went to Art Room to do art. Went together with Yokelin. After that, Guatngoh, shixian, zhiyan, mary, joyce , qudus came to do their art too, and left about 5pm. Home Sweet Home! :D
YOKELIN'S SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HERSELF IN THE ART ROOM! :)
UATNGOH & SHIXIAN USING COMPUTER! :)
&LASTLY ZHIYAN PAINTING HER ART! :)
Wednesday, July 22 4:29 PM
THE LIES THAT HAVE YET TO BE REVEALED!
{ Damn Jerks }
Didn't I warned you right from the start? Now things has happened, and everything can't turn back just for you. Don't blame Linming, he had no faults at all, is me who force him to tell me everything about you.
I told you umpteen times that he wasn't a good guy right? Didn't i say it infront of you and him. I dont care who the hell is him, but i know he'll confirm ended up in a worse situation, i guessed. I told you the last time already. Once a guy told you that he can't forget his ex, he already meant to break up with you. Waiting for this kind of person 's not worth it. Unless he needs you, or he will not be back to your side. Trust me. I had a long talk with linming regarding you and the useless jerk. We agreed to one another's views. If you not gonna change, despite me, dianjin, linming advices, you'll still be the same old you.
Trust me, either you change or you remain the same. Remaining the same will only allows other guys to toy your feelings only. Don't believe , you can ask liming about it. I can't believe you actually hide the truth from me. Thanks to linming for telling me. & I know you know what i'm gonna say to you already. So i will save those rantings of mine. Anything just look up for me in school or text me up. ( Remember that he' isn't worth your love , he sucks to the max. ) Hope that he himself would come my blog and see this, (S) You sucks! Useless (S) Sucks to the Max!
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WEDNESDAY
School was as usual boring (: Woo, i came school with kristin, arrived on the dot. Thanks to Jieyong's 14 missed calls and 3 messages to wake me up. Laughoutloud. Thanks Jieyong! English Lesson was full of interesting jokes while amaths was bored to death. I didn't really understand what ms lim was talking about. I didn't pay much attention , my focus was on the songs that i was listening during class. Emaths lesson, Mr lathiff didn't come and i was listening to songs again and at the same time, trying hard to do amaths homework.
Art lesson was quite dull. I asked mdm farah helped me paint because i couldn't get the colours after painting 7layers on the canvas. It seemed to me that the canvas gonna tear soon. Laughoutloud. Higher mother tongue lesson, i was busily engaging a small talk with ronghua. We're gossiping about our life, super cool right?!
Went to foyer, waited for andy & sinyee to come. Ronghua wanted to see who is sinyee, :D And Andy came at a later time, super slow ahgong! I accompanied him to the class because he simply dont know the way, stupid hor! I can't blame him, because he's quite old already. Ronghua and me studied at the study corner. After the olevel listening comprehension, Andy called me. Walk-ed to bustop, accompany him to take bus. I took and alighted at the first bustop, rather funny right?! Home Sweet Home, (later gonna meet joyce & yokelin)
Sunday, July 19 9:35 AM
SATURDAY
DIANA & ME SLACK AT SUNPLAZA! (:
{ I LOVE DIANA, LOVE SLACKING WITH HER MAN~ }
I went to school early at 9.30am and i did amaths questions. I study alil bit and i went off at around11am. Faster chiong back home, sms-ed kristin but i think she's sleeping still. So meet up with diana! We meet up at 1.30pm and went to arcade. Initially, i wanted to study but no mood. I went to play my ddr. Today sunplaza was super sian. Liming didn't came down, i wanted someone to entertain me la. I think he has beaten up someone and have to mia from sunplaza two days. Laughoutloud. Andy was at arcade too, waiting for ahboy to come down. Ahboy passed his phone to diana to transfer songs and they both disppeared. I saw HANMEIXIAN! :D It was the third time i saw her at sunplaza only, third time sial.
Slacked slacked slacked! Then Diana and me saw roystern. We accompanied him to buy his cigarettes and 3malay boys also asked him to buy. Told the malay boys that : You all smoke smoke, smoke until you die die ar! Then they laugh-ed, no idea why, very funny meh?! Then suddenly diana said, got chiobu. XiaoSoul and her friend came. I was like chuatio sial, repli-ed only a hi. We went to mrt station. Roystern bought his drink and he actually wanted to go a girl, Rachel's house to meet his brother, nic. But luckily he didn't pangseh us. Went back to arcade and Shaun(virus) asked me for Andy number. I gave him and i told andy about it. Then Andy and ahboy came down sunplaza but after that Shaun said no need le. Andy scold Lj in his sms.
Diana and me pangseh roystern at arcade . We went down to macdonald and did 3 questions out of my whole homework. After that, went walk-ing around sunplaza. Saw liyan, her younger sister and her pretty friend. We chatted with them a while then got 2 girls sitting down there scanning at them. We changed venue to kfc outside and did my work. Cam-whored with diana. Liyan they all walk-ed past me again and i told them that i only did 5 questions on that day.Laughoutloud. I'm just too lazy to do. hahahahaha.
Something BIG happened. I have never hear before XXXXXX beaten up in sunplaza only heard that he bulli-ed people one. Wow, andy you super hiong! I praised you! After that, slack-ed at sunplaza again. I went to diana 's block downstairs slack-ed and cam-whored. Diana accompanied me to bustop take bus home then we saw one whole big gang settl-ing taiji. I think they settling the fight just now. On board the bus, saw andy and someone having conflict so i sms-ed andy asking him whether is he alrights. Hope he will be fine afterall. God bless you.
Wednesday, July 15 6:02 PM
XiaoJ's Feeling Soul-ess! :/
{1 month and 4 days }
I was late for school as usual and i kena scolding from Mr siva and Mdm Layla. I was late 7-8 times in a row. Super eff-ing tired nowadays, i doesn't have enough sleep. I went to English Lesson at around 8am. I was feeling tired and i couldn't concentrate as though my soul have left me. That's why Mrs Lee reprimanded the class as the class was life-less. Laughoutloud.
After English Lesson, its was amaths. I couldn't tahan already. I fell asleep in class for half-an-hour. I guess-ed i watched too much television programmes the night before. Emaths lesson, i went for early recess. I told Mr Lathiff that i want to buy drinks because my stomach feeling not well. I went down to canteen and bought my peach alovera. (: I saw Jermaine darling and Jasmin Sister. & i also saw Yi-ern and Yuhui's gang! hahaha. I didn't saw yujun, i bet she 's too lazy to come school already. And from what i know, she always hang out at sunplaza after school but she have yet to come school for once since school already opened.
Art lesson, i did a abit of painting for 2 hours. And its quite shocking. 2hours and did a bit of painting. What the fcuk la. Oh gosh, my olevel art for canvas's left with one week and i have to submit already yet i haven finish half of the canvas. What the hell la, time 's enough for me. Pray that god could give me strength to faster chiong my art. Higher mother tongue lesson was bored as usual, i wrote 5 sentences for the 1hour's lesson. Ronghua's more hiong sial, she didn't even started writing for the chinese essay. Wanqi most hiong, she didn't attend class. Laughoutloud! Went to makan and was late for asp.
Kent and elijah came down look-ed for me because Mr Lathiff said have to wait for me to come to class then can start the class. I told Mr lathiff the reason then went back to sit with joyce. Did my emaths worksheet . 3 questions in 1hour, super kuazhang. That 3 questions indeed a waste of my time. Amaths Asp, our class had a mock exam on integration. I didn't know how to do the rest of the questions except for the first and second. I took Joyce answers and copied it down. And as for the 6th&7th questions , i didn't bother to do. I fell asleep in class and i was dreaming about someone* ( 1month and 4days)
I shall end off here. I gonna meet up with joyce and yokelin soon at 7.50pm. I'll be back home at around 10pm, i guess-ed. I want to chiong back home to watch my channelU show. Seeya guys!
Monday, July 13 8:27 PM
MY HEART'S CURRENTLY FEELING EMPTY*
{ 1 month and 3 days counting on -(L) }
To KerlynKYL :
-I don't want you to be trapped in between the conflict of both of us. I rather lose you as my bestfriend than to see you 左右为难. She got her story to tell and i got my story to tell. Perhaps it'snt the same?! I'm sure you know what i mean. I got many things un-shared but don't know how to tell you. Or rather should i say, perhaps even if you know what i meant, its doesn't make a difference afterall. Because that's all my own opinions about it.
-I still remember how we used to chiong to the canteen to queue up for your stall number3 food. & i could tell you are desperate for that stall. Laughoutloud! But now, everything change-d. Let everything end and be solely my fault. I'll leant to be independent without you hopefully, i guessed. But still, i need your help regarding my English Essays uhs.
-I guess-ed i needed some time to adapt these changes. I believe-d as time passed by, i'll eventually get used to it. Once, or many times before, i told you something. Once if bestfriends gets too close, there bound to be conflicts right. I think I was right all along. Or perhaps i should said our characters can't be match together?! I think these changes will be better for the three of us, hoping so? Anyw, forgive and forget, and blocked. Still remember this setences which we used to say. hahahaha! :)
To My Friends Out There:
-I know you guys are trying to cheer me up. But dont worry, i 'm really fine to the fullest! :D Ohya, dont bother trying to explain things to her already, or will be making matter worse. I know you guys are feeling that why arent i that really fed up or pissed off? Because i still regards her as my friend. & I rather concentrate on my studies than to bother this small misunderstanding.
FYI, Not Angry At Anyone :)
Sunday, July 12 9:08 PM
NOT MUCH TIME LEFT FOR US! :/
FRIDAY (100709)
After school, I went to macdonald to study. I gave yokelin her homework. Unfortunately, there wasn't much motivation for me to study afterall. Waited for kristin to come down. We studi-ed awhile and went to arcade. Chatted with roystern and saw chunleng&xinhao. I asked chunleng pei-ed me play ddr because kristing dont want play with me :/ I failed Freckles(heavy) again. Damn it. Kristin went to look for lester chat chat.
At around 7plus pm, went down to macdonald again. We saw chunleng and his friends outside. We went outside awhile and one of chunleng's friend said OUCH! I thought i hitted someone by accidentally but chunleng said his friend disiaosiao only. Laughoutloud. ElijahLim, Chaiboon and Jweeken were at macdonald studying. Join-ed them together in the revision while Jackson went playing his frishbee at sunplaza hardcourt. Mummy and Daddy came look-ing for me at around 8plus. I told them i wont be back home that early so i ask-ed them go home first. They insisted waiting for me.
I stayed till 9plus at sunplaza and they were annoy-ed so went home first already. The 3 Brothers, Krisitin and me walk-ed home together. We all chuatio regarding Zoe Chan And Valenie. We stunned at there, can't believe-d our eyes. Zoe Chan and Valenie are cousins, told valenie dont be so close to Zoe Chan because she's so lian. hahahaha! I still can't recover from the shock. Unbelievable man! Home sweet Home at 10 o'clock!
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SATURDAY
Early in the morning, i went to school for Mr lathiff's maths consultation class. After that, I went home chang-ed and went back to macdonald wait for yokelin. They came and we studi-ed. I went to arcade look-ed for Jovin. Mr OH came and find me because i told him i very bored all that. He accompan-ied me talk crap. Laughoutloud! Cheerup, Mr OH! :D After that, he left at around 3.45pm. I was alone for a few minutes.
Kent came all of a sudden. He then sat with me and we studied. Kristin later came too. Kent and me went playing basketball and left kristin alone at macdonald. Kristin and me cam-whored and studi-ed again. Oh, We have got 70photos together le. Cheers man~ After Kent had played basketball, Kristin and me went arcade. I saw Jiazhen there. I want people to accompany me play DDR , but kristin dontwant. Chunleng wasn't at there too :( I played ddr alone several times, and i kept failing freckles (heavy).
I play-ed with a China lady ddr. She has just learnt how to play ddr. hahahaha. I played with her and i passed my Freckles (heavy). Wow, cool~ First time pass-ed leh, super duper happy. Next time, if i see chunleng, i shall pull him accompany me play that song. hahahaha. Today, i wasted alot of money on arcade. I can't believe i can't pass that song so i kept playing. Some of the money went down the drain cos i played the song for the lst stage and i lost. After that, we went to library but kristin can't find her Singapore True Ghost Stories; search using the computer and all was on loan, i think. fcuk sial! Home Sweet Home at around 8 plus pm. :)
At around 10pm, Ahxiong's daddy called us and asked us go down to his chalet near East coast Park. Wow, its kind of random. hahahaha. Mummy, brother and me got dressed and went there by Ahxiong's daddy car. Reached there, i dont even know much people, so quite bored actually. Whisky (dog) was there too ^^. I brought Whisky walk walk around the resort, because nothing to do there. The adults were chatting away.
After that, saw AhXiong's wife and baby. I also saw Ahxiong's tattoo. It was quite cool but i didn't tell him. hahaha. Wow, she's a young mummy-to-be. I didn't see his wife's sister. I want to know who is her sister cos Ahxiong' mum claimed that she's ahlian. And my mum said she always hang out at sunplaza too but i have yet to see her. Perhaps i might have seen her before?! I only saw Ahxiong' wife , 2nd sister. Ahxiong's mum told my mother their daughters very ahlian one. Laughoutloud!
AhXiong came randomly and asked whther want play poker cards. And he said he got money for me to cheat him. hahaha. I still remember CNY'09, me and my sister tried cheating ahxiong and his wife's money. hahaha. We gambled and every single game, he lost. If we lost, we would use his money to pay him. Ahxiong also wanted me to tell my sisters he's angry because they didn't come. We Chatted away happily and look-ed at his baby there, Cam-whored together :) I was really super tired yesterday. Home sweet home at around 1.30pm.
Thursday, July 9 7:42 PM
I'm Still Waiting, Waiting For Your Sms-es...
{ I agreed to this 100% }
I wonder-ed if Kerlyn KamYokelin's Coming To School Tomorrow? {missingher}
I agreed with Yokelin, there' snt much time left for us to study already.
It's time to put aside those eff-ing unhappiness and put all the concentration on studies. Today, quite a few of my friends asked me regarding something and my response was i dont care a damn about it alr.
What others want said is his/her eff-ing business. He/She wants to badmouth me is his/her problem. I had no idea why he/she wanted to talk shit here. I bet nothing good comes out of his/her mouth. I had no time to entertain him/her alr, its just a waste of time only. Waste of my Precious time only, i rather spent my time on my studies. Agreed?! I realised that Studies's more important than entertaining those eff-ing irritating people out there who does nothing but talk crap only. Oh enough of my rants, laughoutloud. I shall go sleep already and study at midnight later on. I am super tired already. Hopefully yokelin come school tomorrow! :D